Endless Blind Passions
by Gareth Sirotnik
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Will love conquer lies? In the settling dust of 9/11, a gay Zen Buddhist Jew faces up to the duplicity in his and his lovers’ lives. Honest and erotic, Endless Blind Passions is a fiction about an all-too-real word that’s going berserk.
Lusting after life—and cute guys—the self-absorbed yet charming Monty encounters one deceit after another, especially his own. Until he meets Jamal, an Afghan refugee: beautiful and brilliant, and rock-solid real, with bewitching blue-green eyes.
At last everything seems to click. Until it doesn’t. Hours after the 9/11 terror attack, the FBI swoops into Monty’s Seattle houseboat, hunting for Jamal, who never came to bed last night. Unhinged, Monty tumbles into fifty years of memories, from his early fears of death to his sexual awakening, and from life-altering encounters with Zen and peyote to dark secrets about a murder, a suicide, and a double life—until the past catches up with the present and all the masks are dropped.
A saga of America circa 1950–2001 in the guise of a gay romance and a 9/11 intrigue, Endless Blind Passions portrays the search for love and spiritual awakening in a nation run amok, with nightmarish visions of an approaching dystopia.
© 2025 by Gareth Sirotnik
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This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either the product of the author’s imagination or used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.
This novel contains explicit sexual content and is intended for mature readers only.
I just finished Endless Blind Passions and found it a thoroughly enjoyable read that drew me in right from the beginning and kept me engaged to the end.
I thought it was a masterful interweaving of multiple time frames in the plot including history and culture, particularly the ways in which gay culture is expressed in different times and places in the world. Overall, I would say it is a testament to the resilience of the protagonists who each struggle in their own way to overcome their flaws and limitations in their quest for human connection, creativity and meaning.
I loved the extended dark dream segment that spilled us into the ending which kept me guessing until the last few pages. It also left me with an appreciation of how profoundly, even in our own lifetimes, we are affected by shifting undercurrents of geo-politics and culture that are far beyond our control.
I enjoyed taking in the nuggets of information about many diverse issues, ranging from Zen to Judaism to peyote to world politics so appreciated the depth of research to bring to life the characters in such a detailed and believable way.